The Calling

I received a letter from Singapore offering a place to study there. And what's more, I am going to there. It's not a full scholarship but its a chance of a lifetime. I get to save up a year's of study. The scholarship allows me to pay the school fees as a citizen of Singapore. I am so mixed up inside that I do not know what words to be used to be used to describe my feelings.

*lots of sighs*

Okay, I feel really depressed because I am going to leave everyone behind especially my parents. And also my friends. I am gonna leave my good buddies like Pheeshelaa, Egan, Aaron, Nigel, Wafa, Amanda, Xin Ling, my hubby, Siew Yee, Siew Ni, Carmen, Jayson, Kiwi, Roy, Samara, Priscilla..... gosh the list is too long. And also my teachers, Ms Eveonne, Ms Rubini, Puan Azila, Mr Faisal, and the list goes on..

But at the same time, I am happy too. I mean I can go to Singapore!

*more sighs*

Nevermind, I can't write anymore. Feelings and mind too clouded.

Happy Birthday, My Beloved Mum

October 4th.
My Mum's birthday.
She had just turned 42.
Boy, she still look like she's in her late 20s.
Trust me, I am not biased.

Today, the space in this post will be dedicated to you,
Wholly to you.

You were the one who went thorough all the pain,
to give me a chance to wonder at the beautiful world.
You were the one who first taught me how to speak,
and despite how dummy I might sound at that time,
You still smiled at me with that angelic smile of yours.
You were the one who taught me that humanity and kindness do exist in this world.
You were the one that listen to my problems and offer priceless advices,
You were the one who always tend to my wounds inside indirectly,
You were the one who was always be there whenever I need company.
You are my closest friend and very next to my own heart.
Nobody could replace you, and I swear upon my very existant.

I was always the one to hurt you,
with my words, action and disobedient.
I am truly the worst daughter you could ever have.
Therefore, I've decided to embark upon a total makeover in my attitude.
I'll try my hardest and do my best.
I give you my word as you daughter.
It might take time but I'll keep my promise, this promise, in my mind.

You are the one who was always the first to make up a witty comment no matter how dense the atmosphere is at that moment,
You are the reason why I am still here,
you have instilled your strong personality in me,
influencing me in many ways I couldn't find enough space to describe.

I love you, Mum.
I truly do.



"Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy.
Love is never boastful, nor conceited, nor rude;
It is not self-seeking, nor easily angered.
It keeps no record of wrongdoing.
It does not delight in evil,
But rejoices in the truth.
It always protects, trusts, hopes, and preserves.
There is nothing love cannot face;
There is no limit to its faith, hope, and endurance.
In a word, there are three things that last forever:
Faith, hope, and love;
But the greatest of them all is love. "