I missed Pheeshelaa very much,
Lunch and breaks in school is much boring without her laughing,
Or doing something stupid out of the blue.
I can't talk much with her now,
Because she's a prefect,
And we can't get to talk much in class.
Sigh, I understand her duty,
So I am not complaining.
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Worries and Comforts
Worries:
1. My piano exam fees is sky high. Its totaled up to a Rm 502.00.
2. My mum is not so well but i believe she's a superwoman.
3. The petrol price plummeted another $120 in the market and its so going to make my life harder.
4. The end year exams are coming.
5. Oceanus will be sold out before i can get my hands on them.
6. I won't be able to talk to Pheeshelaa or Xing Ling that often anymore but I understand.
7. Not enough money to buy tickets for the tennis exhibition match at the end year.
8. My brother might take over my height anytime.
9. I do not know why but i felt like I'm ignoring my crush, ex-crush i suppose, unconsciously. I should do something about it.
Comforts:
1. I'm proud of Egan! *I hope you're reading this, Tigger!
2. I managed to complete one of the three piano exam pieces.
3. My parents gave me more freedom to go the park during the evenings. :)
4. My friends are great!
5. My brother had slimmed down rapidly.
6. The walls in my room are comforting. They listen to my problems and offer me the comfort of silence.
7. Chopin should be given credit too. His music helped me out lots. Especially this few days!
8. I finally get to buy more story books.
Okay, that's the list of my worries and my comforts.
I felt really crabby when I got home.
So i just assume its just the usual mood swings.
Mum was still sick.
God, her tears were even flowing when she's driving.
She needs a flu shot.
Anyway, I was able to go to the park today. :)
I do not know what will happen to me if I had not gone.
I felt really tensed the whole day.
From the moment i opened my eyes till after school.
I have been acting weird in school,
Dazing into the nothingness,
I can't even absorb what Ms. Mariyam was talking.
Even Xing Ling noticed my different behaviour.
I'm sorry Xing Ling, but i can not tell you anything.
I am facing a lot of personal problems that i don't have the guts to tell people,
Even my close friends.
Back to the story,
So I walked to the park,
With my siblings and my dad.
Dad went jogging around the park,
While we played football.
Considering that there wasn't much people at that time,
I went to join the basketball.
We played a game with some guys,
3 of them were really good,
All about 18++,
One of them is quite nice. :)
He's not a sexism,
And he's got a nice smile.
He did a lot of lay ups and slam dunk,
and boy, can he run fast!
One second, he's already at another side of the court.
He is pretty good looking,
I'll give him some credit. :D
After a while,
I went back to the football,
Terence was there too,
I dribbled Andrew,
Gee, you should have heard him swore!
But, sadly, I did not managed to score.
But my moods are so much better now. =)
What a day.
1. My piano exam fees is sky high. Its totaled up to a Rm 502.00.
2. My mum is not so well but i believe she's a superwoman.
3. The petrol price plummeted another $120 in the market and its so going to make my life harder.
4. The end year exams are coming.
5. Oceanus will be sold out before i can get my hands on them.
6. I won't be able to talk to Pheeshelaa or Xing Ling that often anymore but I understand.
7. Not enough money to buy tickets for the tennis exhibition match at the end year.
8. My brother might take over my height anytime.
9. I do not know why but i felt like I'm ignoring my crush, ex-crush i suppose, unconsciously. I should do something about it.
Comforts:
1. I'm proud of Egan! *I hope you're reading this, Tigger!
2. I managed to complete one of the three piano exam pieces.
3. My parents gave me more freedom to go the park during the evenings. :)
4. My friends are great!
5. My brother had slimmed down rapidly.
6. The walls in my room are comforting. They listen to my problems and offer me the comfort of silence.
7. Chopin should be given credit too. His music helped me out lots. Especially this few days!
8. I finally get to buy more story books.
Okay, that's the list of my worries and my comforts.
I felt really crabby when I got home.
So i just assume its just the usual mood swings.
Mum was still sick.
God, her tears were even flowing when she's driving.
She needs a flu shot.
Anyway, I was able to go to the park today. :)
I do not know what will happen to me if I had not gone.
I felt really tensed the whole day.
From the moment i opened my eyes till after school.
I have been acting weird in school,
Dazing into the nothingness,
I can't even absorb what Ms. Mariyam was talking.
Even Xing Ling noticed my different behaviour.
I'm sorry Xing Ling, but i can not tell you anything.
I am facing a lot of personal problems that i don't have the guts to tell people,
Even my close friends.
Back to the story,
So I walked to the park,
With my siblings and my dad.
Dad went jogging around the park,
While we played football.
Considering that there wasn't much people at that time,
I went to join the basketball.
We played a game with some guys,
3 of them were really good,
All about 18++,
One of them is quite nice. :)
He's not a sexism,
And he's got a nice smile.
He did a lot of lay ups and slam dunk,
and boy, can he run fast!
One second, he's already at another side of the court.
He is pretty good looking,
I'll give him some credit. :D
After a while,
I went back to the football,
Terence was there too,
I dribbled Andrew,
Gee, you should have heard him swore!
But, sadly, I did not managed to score.
But my moods are so much better now. =)
What a day.
Monday, September 22, 2008
Finally punctured.
My secret is finally punctured.
Guess what?
My crush now know that i had 'feelings' for him.
How good is that?
It was very shocking to discover the truth that he finally knew,
But the fact that he knows now make me feel so bare and vulnerable.
I thank god for His graciousness that my crush,
is still treating me like the usual.
For that, i can not thank him enough.
It wasn't that bad that he finally found,
but there must be a traitor among my friends,
Though I'm not sure of who.
After some mind searching,
I finally decided not to pursue that traitor.
After all, there's no point in confronting him,
as my crush has already know.
Though, i don't really care now. :D
But if i have any more personal secret like this,
I'd wager you that only i will know, not anyone else.
Nobody.
At all.
I had thought of liking him from the back,
And just give up quietly in the end.
Obviously, I didn't manage to do it.
= =
Let me describe how this person is to me.
I think he is good looking, one of its kind,
and he is quite sensitive even if he doesn't shows it.
He's as cool as a cucumber and could beat Zac Efron flat anytime,
and he's is a forgiving person. : )
My feelings for him are kept in minimal,
but with much effort.
I kept my feelings in check,
and not to go over the line.
I had been careful with my feelings,
careful not to spill any clues,
but all it takes was just someone to reveal my secret,
and KA -BOOM,
its out.
*sigh*
Anyway,
i had expected him to run away from me,
or maybe just ignore me,
but he didn't!
He still treat me just the same,
and I'm very thankful.
I sincerely hope that he will get someone better than me.
Honestly. :D
I do like him but i suppose the furthest i can go,
is just maintaining as friends,
which i am happy to be.
I not sure if I'm still so into him,
one thing for sure,
He was my first crush. XD
And he will stay as the first.
Special.
Funny thing is,
I feel relieved.
Although i don't think I have any more secrets,
(bout him , that is),
I felt so light and free.
maybe this thing has been weighing in my chest for too long,
So now,
I'm letting it just to go with the flow.
I do not care what might happen in the future,
but I'm content now.
Funny how puberty change a person.
I have thought I won't have to face this kind of problem,
But now,
it happened.
there's nothing i can do now,
so I'll just sit back and see what will happen next. :D
Guess what?
My crush now know that i had 'feelings' for him.
How good is that?
It was very shocking to discover the truth that he finally knew,
But the fact that he knows now make me feel so bare and vulnerable.
I thank god for His graciousness that my crush,
is still treating me like the usual.
For that, i can not thank him enough.
It wasn't that bad that he finally found,
but there must be a traitor among my friends,
Though I'm not sure of who.
After some mind searching,
I finally decided not to pursue that traitor.
After all, there's no point in confronting him,
as my crush has already know.
Though, i don't really care now. :D
But if i have any more personal secret like this,
I'd wager you that only i will know, not anyone else.
Nobody.
At all.
I had thought of liking him from the back,
And just give up quietly in the end.
Obviously, I didn't manage to do it.
= =
Let me describe how this person is to me.
I think he is good looking, one of its kind,
and he is quite sensitive even if he doesn't shows it.
He's as cool as a cucumber and could beat Zac Efron flat anytime,
and he's is a forgiving person. : )
My feelings for him are kept in minimal,
but with much effort.
I kept my feelings in check,
and not to go over the line.
I had been careful with my feelings,
careful not to spill any clues,
but all it takes was just someone to reveal my secret,
and KA -BOOM,
its out.
*sigh*
Anyway,
i had expected him to run away from me,
or maybe just ignore me,
but he didn't!
He still treat me just the same,
and I'm very thankful.
I sincerely hope that he will get someone better than me.
Honestly. :D
I do like him but i suppose the furthest i can go,
is just maintaining as friends,
which i am happy to be.
I not sure if I'm still so into him,
one thing for sure,
He was my first crush. XD
And he will stay as the first.
Special.
Funny thing is,
I feel relieved.
Although i don't think I have any more secrets,
(bout him , that is),
I felt so light and free.
maybe this thing has been weighing in my chest for too long,
So now,
I'm letting it just to go with the flow.
I do not care what might happen in the future,
but I'm content now.
Funny how puberty change a person.
I have thought I won't have to face this kind of problem,
But now,
it happened.
there's nothing i can do now,
so I'll just sit back and see what will happen next. :D
Saturday, September 20, 2008
Thousnands of Apologies!
Sigh, I've been absolutely busy with stuff,
That I did not have the time to update my blog.
Gee, its been a long time isn't it?
I'm sorry!
Basically nothing much have changed.
but, blaming the Ghost festival,
The camp was canceled.
Though, i think it's something good too,
Because I was able to practice the piano for the exam.
I took the exam at Hilton Hotel in PJ.
That examiner had blue eyes!
* smiles
I reckon he's about 40++,
But he's very warm towards me.
The exam went pretty well, thank goodness.
The result just came out,
I scored a 114,
And i'm happy with it. =)
I'm just a bit frustrated,
because the examiner just won't give me,
another 6 marks to get merit.
Oh well, i'm taking grade 6 next year,
So i hope i'll get better marks.
That I did not have the time to update my blog.
Gee, its been a long time isn't it?
I'm sorry!
Basically nothing much have changed.
but, blaming the Ghost festival,
The camp was canceled.
Though, i think it's something good too,
Because I was able to practice the piano for the exam.
I took the exam at Hilton Hotel in PJ.
That examiner had blue eyes!
* smiles
I reckon he's about 40++,
But he's very warm towards me.
The exam went pretty well, thank goodness.
The result just came out,
I scored a 114,
And i'm happy with it. =)
I'm just a bit frustrated,
because the examiner just won't give me,
another 6 marks to get merit.
Oh well, i'm taking grade 6 next year,
So i hope i'll get better marks.
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