The Best Surprise

Today i received the best surprise and the best gift.
It can be considered the best-est thing that can happen in my whole life so far.
Really! i'm not kidding and neither am i joking!

This is what happened.

I met up with Wafa, Priscilla and Amanda plus Nigel and Indran at 1U.
Wafa and Amanda were there first.
So i went to meet them at Baskin Robbins.

Then....
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They asked me to close my eyes.
I did as they told.

They brandished a Topshop plastic bag from their bag
And pass it to me.

Amanda: *cheeky smile on her face* You must wear this when you're in S'pore.
Wafa: Definitely!
Amanda: When you wear them you'll remember us.
Wafa: Yeah. We got them from Topshop. Hope you like it. <3

I peeked into the plastic bag.
LO! Its two PANTIES!!!
And what's more they are all printed with hearts!
I was so shocked yet it was so hilarious!
I laughed out loud.
And thanked them for their unique gift.

Cute? X)

We met up with the guys later.

Next we went to the movies after lunch at Charms. :)
We met Egan, Kyle and Rachel Lim.

Talked and bantered.Amanda. She's a sweet girl!

Wafa can't use chopsticks. Seriously. *solemn

Then the 6 of us went to the movies. Watched Madagascar.
Everything was okay. at the beginning of the show, Indran was sitting next to me.
I think he wasted a lot of popcorn on me. He spilled them on my lap. LOL.

The movie was okay but i prefer the first one though.
But it has a nice twist in the story anyway. Melmon the Giraffe confessed his love to Gloria the Hippo. LOL.

Then we split up and walked around the place. We girls went to Forever 21 and also Zara.
Each of us took one piece of cloth and tried.
Amanda took the liberty to try one that looked like a cheongsam.
She tried it on and the front button came off!
She was flabbergasted.
In the end she just told the sales person there was something wrong with the dress.....
.......................... and she got away with it.

I stopped at a CD shop and bought a CD for Indran.
It was meant to be a Christmas present that we both promised to exchange.
He loved it.
I mean, how can he not?
It's a StarWars CD he had been looking for for years.
He gave me huggy. :)

Then we went to Sakae Sushi for dinner. I ordered beef rice. It was nice.
We talked bout everything and pointless stuff. XD

Nigel: What to makan,ya?

After dinner, we walked around. It was about 7 o'clock already.
Somehow we managed to reach SaSa.
All the gals were testing the perfumes on display.
I went out after a while
We were all on the escalator.
Nigel was by my side.
Then he started talking.

Nigel: Did amanda tell you anything?
Me: Yeah. O.o
Nigel: * weird look* what did she tell you?
Me: Erm.. Clothes, fashion, shoes, food, tennis, perfumes...........*drones on*
Nigel: You know, *pauses for a while* I got you the ticket to the tennis match on tuesday.
Me: * too speechless to speak and mouth gaping*
Nigel: *chuckles*
Me: I..... You... ticket... *stutter, can't get the words right*
Nigel: *smiling*
Me: Gee, thank you so much!! * the gratitude speech went on and on*

This is the prized ticket!

Then I walked to Priscilla, Wafa, and Amanda.
I can't hold my tears any longer.
They just flowed down my flushing cheeks.
Before i know it i'm already sobbing and caught in the arms of my friends.
I was really moved. Tell me, any of your friends would actually spend a rm231 ticket on you?
Anyone? No.
I totally love him and Kiwi for this.
(Kiwi shared the money but it was Nigel's idea originally though)

I was really happy that day.
If you ever read this Nigel,
I want you know how happy was I that day.
That was the best gift <3
It was one happy chapter of my life.
Happy to know thatI have met such wonderful friends.
I truly love you guys.
Thanks to Wafa dn Amanda again for the sexy panties. I love all of you.


...................... Can't wait for Tuesday~~ the tennis match. ;)

The Calling

I received a letter from Singapore offering a place to study there. And what's more, I am going to there. It's not a full scholarship but its a chance of a lifetime. I get to save up a year's of study. The scholarship allows me to pay the school fees as a citizen of Singapore. I am so mixed up inside that I do not know what words to be used to be used to describe my feelings.

*lots of sighs*

Okay, I feel really depressed because I am going to leave everyone behind especially my parents. And also my friends. I am gonna leave my good buddies like Pheeshelaa, Egan, Aaron, Nigel, Wafa, Amanda, Xin Ling, my hubby, Siew Yee, Siew Ni, Carmen, Jayson, Kiwi, Roy, Samara, Priscilla..... gosh the list is too long. And also my teachers, Ms Eveonne, Ms Rubini, Puan Azila, Mr Faisal, and the list goes on..

But at the same time, I am happy too. I mean I can go to Singapore!

*more sighs*

Nevermind, I can't write anymore. Feelings and mind too clouded.

Happy Birthday, My Beloved Mum

October 4th.
My Mum's birthday.
She had just turned 42.
Boy, she still look like she's in her late 20s.
Trust me, I am not biased.

Today, the space in this post will be dedicated to you,
Wholly to you.

You were the one who went thorough all the pain,
to give me a chance to wonder at the beautiful world.
You were the one who first taught me how to speak,
and despite how dummy I might sound at that time,
You still smiled at me with that angelic smile of yours.
You were the one who taught me that humanity and kindness do exist in this world.
You were the one that listen to my problems and offer priceless advices,
You were the one who always tend to my wounds inside indirectly,
You were the one who was always be there whenever I need company.
You are my closest friend and very next to my own heart.
Nobody could replace you, and I swear upon my very existant.

I was always the one to hurt you,
with my words, action and disobedient.
I am truly the worst daughter you could ever have.
Therefore, I've decided to embark upon a total makeover in my attitude.
I'll try my hardest and do my best.
I give you my word as you daughter.
It might take time but I'll keep my promise, this promise, in my mind.

You are the one who was always the first to make up a witty comment no matter how dense the atmosphere is at that moment,
You are the reason why I am still here,
you have instilled your strong personality in me,
influencing me in many ways I couldn't find enough space to describe.

I love you, Mum.
I truly do.



"Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy.
Love is never boastful, nor conceited, nor rude;
It is not self-seeking, nor easily angered.
It keeps no record of wrongdoing.
It does not delight in evil,
But rejoices in the truth.
It always protects, trusts, hopes, and preserves.
There is nothing love cannot face;
There is no limit to its faith, hope, and endurance.
In a word, there are three things that last forever:
Faith, hope, and love;
But the greatest of them all is love. "

Stupid Day

I missed Pheeshelaa very much,
Lunch and breaks in school is much boring without her laughing,
Or doing something stupid out of the blue.
I can't talk much with her now,
Because she's a prefect,
And we can't get to talk much in class.

Sigh, I understand her duty,
So I am not complaining.

Worries and Comforts

Worries:
1. My piano exam fees is sky high. Its totaled up to a Rm 502.00.
2. My mum is not so well but i believe she's a superwoman.
3. The petrol price plummeted another $120 in the market and its so going to make my life harder.
4. The end year exams are coming.
5. Oceanus will be sold out before i can get my hands on them.
6. I won't be able to talk to Pheeshelaa or Xing Ling that often anymore but I understand.
7. Not enough money to buy tickets for the tennis exhibition match at the end year.
8. My brother might take over my height anytime.
9. I do not know why but i felt like I'm ignoring my crush, ex-crush i suppose, unconsciously. I should do something about it.

Comforts:
1. I'm proud of Egan! *I hope you're reading this, Tigger!
2. I managed to complete one of the three piano exam pieces.
3. My parents gave me more freedom to go the park during the evenings. :)
4. My friends are great!
5. My brother had slimmed down rapidly.
6. The walls in my room are comforting. They listen to my problems and offer me the comfort of silence.
7. Chopin should be given credit too. His music helped me out lots. Especially this few days!
8. I finally get to buy more story books.



Okay, that's the list of my worries and my comforts.
I felt really crabby when I got home.
So i just assume its just the usual mood swings.
Mum was still sick.
God, her tears were even flowing when she's driving.
She needs a flu shot.

Anyway, I was able to go to the park today. :)
I do not know what will happen to me if I had not gone.
I felt really tensed the whole day.
From the moment i opened my eyes till after school.
I have been acting weird in school,
Dazing into the nothingness,
I can't even absorb what Ms. Mariyam was talking.
Even Xing Ling noticed my different behaviour.
I'm sorry Xing Ling, but i can not tell you anything.
I am facing a lot of personal problems that i don't have the guts to tell people,
Even my close friends.

Back to the story,
So I walked to the park,
With my siblings and my dad.
Dad went jogging around the park,
While we played football.
Considering that there wasn't much people at that time,
I went to join the basketball.

We played a game with some guys,
3 of them were really good,
All about 18++,
One of them is quite nice. :)
He's not a sexism,
And he's got a nice smile.
He did a lot of lay ups and slam dunk,
and boy, can he run fast!
One second, he's already at another side of the court.
He is pretty good looking,
I'll give him some credit. :D

After a while,
I went back to the football,
Terence was there too,
I dribbled Andrew,
Gee, you should have heard him swore!
But, sadly, I did not managed to score.
But my moods are so much better now. =)
What a day.

Finally punctured.

My secret is finally punctured.
Guess what?
My crush now know that i had 'feelings' for him.
How good is that?
It was very shocking to discover the truth that he finally knew,
But the fact that he knows now make me feel so bare and vulnerable.

I thank god for His graciousness that my crush,
is still treating me like the usual.
For that, i can not thank him enough.
It wasn't that bad that he finally found,
but there must be a traitor among my friends,
Though I'm not sure of who.

After some mind searching,
I finally decided not to pursue that traitor.
After all, there's no point in confronting him,
as my crush has already know.
Though, i don't really care now. :D
But if i have any more personal secret like this,
I'd wager you that only i will know, not anyone else.
Nobody.
At all.

I had thought of liking him from the back,
And just give up quietly in the end.
Obviously, I didn't manage to do it.
= =

Let me describe how this person is to me.
I think he is good looking, one of its kind,
and he is quite sensitive even if he doesn't shows it.
He's as cool as a cucumber and could beat Zac Efron flat anytime,
and he's is a forgiving person. : )

My feelings for him are kept in minimal,
but with much effort.
I kept my feelings in check,
and not to go over the line.
I had been careful with my feelings,
careful not to spill any clues,
but all it takes was just someone to reveal my secret,
and KA -BOOM,
its out.
*sigh*
Anyway,
i had expected him to run away from me,
or maybe just ignore me,
but he didn't!
He still treat me just the same,
and I'm very thankful.
I sincerely hope that he will get someone better than me.
Honestly. :D

I do like him but i suppose the furthest i can go,
is just maintaining as friends,
which i am happy to be.
I not sure if I'm still so into him,
one thing for sure,
He was my first crush. XD
And he will stay as the first.
Special.

Funny thing is,
I feel relieved.
Although i don't think I have any more secrets,
(bout him , that is),
I felt so light and free.
maybe this thing has been weighing in my chest for too long,
So now,
I'm letting it just to go with the flow.
I do not care what might happen in the future,
but I'm content now.

Funny how puberty change a person.
I have thought I won't have to face this kind of problem,
But now,
it happened.

there's nothing i can do now,
so I'll just sit back and see what will happen next. :D

Thousnands of Apologies!

Sigh, I've been absolutely busy with stuff,
That I did not have the time to update my blog.
Gee, its been a long time isn't it?
I'm sorry!

Basically nothing much have changed.
but, blaming the Ghost festival,
The camp was canceled.
Though, i think it's something good too,
Because I was able to practice the piano for the exam.

I took the exam at Hilton Hotel in PJ.
That examiner had blue eyes!
* smiles
I reckon he's about 40++,
But he's very warm towards me.
The exam went pretty well, thank goodness.

The result just came out,
I scored a 114,
And i'm happy with it. =)
I'm just a bit frustrated,
because the examiner just won't give me,
another 6 marks to get merit.

Oh well, i'm taking grade 6 next year,
So i hope i'll get better marks.

Victory!

This is too great!
My mum allowed me to go to the camp,
and.............. also shopping!
Yay!!!!
But in exchange to that,
she made me to reveal something to her.
It wasn't exactly the best thing i should do,
but its complicated and she cornered me.
That left me with no choice.
Sigh..

But I'm feeling better now. =)
I can't wait for the camp!!!
It'll be held at Kerak, Pahang.
It's a 3 days 2 nights trip.
God, I hope time will pass faster!

More Apology..

I'm so so so sorry!
I promised that i will blog,
but looks like I've broken my promise..

There wasn't much to blog about anyway..
Yesterday night,
I watched the opening ceremony of Olympics.
God,
I wonder in my mind,
' How much are they spending on this ceremony?'.
This question went jogging round my head,
until i decided I could not estimate the indescribable big amount.

The ceremony kicked off with much style,
not to mention rich in heritage.
Body art has been a trademark of the Chinese.
Therefore I'm not really shocked when some performers,
came out of the darkness started ,
to dance on top of a large paper,
( nearly as large as the badminton court i think).
What really awed me is that,
they are actually painting a scenery while dancing!
Black charcoal ( it could be something else, its just my assumption) were tied to their hands.
Actually, what they did is rather hard to describe,
considering the depth of my vocabulary is still rather low.
Try to watch it on Astro,
And you will get what I'm trying to describe.

The ceremony was an awesome,
until the contingent waving session..
I basically slept through that..
there was 204 contingents!
obviously the largest contingent is from China.
I didn't watch the whole thing.
read some from the newspaper.

That was that.

My school is going to hold a camp for us seniors.
Initially, it costs RM 260.00.
Everyone sort of boycotted it.
Then it went
lower
RM 200
and lower
rm160.

I want to go,
but the camp is held on the second day of the Ghost Festival,
so Dad got superstitious,
and said no.
Mum was a bit kinder,
but this doesn't mean the choices she given are any better.
I planned to do some shopping with my friends,
(all girls for the time being),
to get a new pair of footwear,
accessories,
maybe some clothes.
and others stuff i see on display
that catches my eyes,
and also a present for Matthew. =)

Mum let me choose whether i will go to the camp,
or the shopping spree. =. =
I'm only allowed to choose one of them..

I'm in a dilemma.

What should I do?

Apology

Lots of apology to my dear readers,
I have been extremely busy with my stuff at school for the past whole week.

I'll post a blog tomorrow. :D